Finding Me
I need to find myself.
I haven't felt like "Nick" in sometime.
The jovial, good natured, happy creature that wished all people good.

I still believe in humanity.
I still have my faith.
I still have the basic characteristics of me.

But as times have changed, I've lost the ability to express those things. When I lost Pride Alliance, I lost my ability to express my hope and determination. When I moved off campus, I lost my sense of belonging and the warm homey feeling I felt for a room that I had spent so many good and bad memories.

And new things have been added that I'm not so much use to. I'm not use to doing research. I enjoy it deeply, but it feels odd. I've never had an outlet for expressing those types of feelings.

Today, I'm going to make an attempt to feel life me, after I cram like a son of a bitch for a history exam which should actually make me feel just right at home.

ttyl.